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My extreme is to end this relationship

People are like floating dust, crowded in noisy and disturbing spaces. The space is so small that when they raise their heads for a moment, they will find the missed scenery in front of them, which is also very large, big people can’t see the next life, don’t know the past. The past was very important, but in the late night of the autumn worm gaokai, the old movies were played again and again. The pictures turned yellow and were pickled by the living reality. However, she was still there, staying silently in the restless Firefly light at midnight, he said nothing and waited for himself who had gone to the future. The future is the past of the next second. No matter how I outline the prospect, I can’t afford to see the words of the past. Those fresh scenes are in my world, some stories are suitable for light goods alone in silence, such as a glass of water, cold, but still can solve the unspeakable thirst, some things can not be touched, such as a cup, the crack had already appeared so far, and accidentally she broke the ground. The light shining in the crystal was very beautiful, but it deeply hurt the soft part and felt dull pain. This kind of injury to others will be inadvertently provoked, such as a war, which is in the occasional event, suddenly found that the beyond recognition standing in the distant and untouchable past. It also includes events, a laugh, and an ending. There are supporting roles of the leading role, the director’s scene, and one is indispensable. Otherwise, how can a blockbuster like life be performed. Try to keep yourself in the present, don’t go the way, but in the familiar red light, think of the laughter at that time, in front of the same variety of flowers will end the original decision. When will this old movie be released, it will always be serialized with sequels, plain, prosperous, silent, depressed and laughing. If a text message is asked, I can face it calmly now. I am most afraid of picking me up and torturing the decision at that time. How naive we were at that time, how rash we were in youth, how sentimental we were in youth, and how much we liked each other had passed the past. This road, you are there and I am here, the footprints of walking together have been drowned into a dusty world by the lunar eclipse of the residual year, and the shadow disappears into a flat desert with the decline of the Sun and the moon. You really can’t touch me, just as I can’t say a few words to you again, we live in two worlds, with flowers leading butterflies to fly to each other, each other has promises. But you cried on the other end of the phone. You said that only after suffering, you would grow old and only endure forever. These are all built on the edge of morality, which is a kind of shackle, it is not locked properly, and it is also soft-hearted. It is ruthless because it only serves this indifferent society. I want to be an independent self, but I can’t be strong enough to go there. Another kind of shackle is also tied around my neck, which is called responsibility. You are really cruel. Once again, you have dragged me to the past. In fact, I have forgotten the shadow under the light and the moon. Try to forget and try to say that I love you and love you to my present life, try to live like this. In this case, if you open the blood from the wound, I will learn the treatment method. Yes, your pain cannot be cured by good doctors all over the world. I know, only I can try to calm your stubborn illness in reality and restore your smile. Walking on this shaking bridge in the middle age, we will find many palpitations and chilling things. Compared with the past, in the future, we have to face separation and death, no matter how many fantasies we meet, it has turned into a colorful bubble in the sky. Therefore, if it is plain now, don’t lose heart. We have a big past and there will be a falling Future. You see, there are ups and downs in life. How prosperous it is, but now it is plain. Everything needs transition, doesn’t it? Although I often think of some extreme things, I don’t know if you have these thoughts in this agitated and depressed society. If I stand in a tall building, especially in a place with more than six floors, I would stand on a balcony with Windows, or stand on the top floor and look down. Although I was afraid of heights, at that time I would think about what I would look like if I jumped down. The process was like fallen leaves, A light trace of death was drawn in the air, and then crashed to the ground. I think the flowers under me must have changed from purple to red, if I felt pain at that moment, let me think about this failed life. I don’t know whether thinking will gradually fade or go to one extreme after another as the years grow. Many friends around me hide their emotions deeply, or they have sealed something in a basement that cannot be opened any more. They are very happy and have no thoughts and worries in the past and future. If they really ask them about their emotions, they are all so vulgar and simple to ask for a little man like a three-wife and four-concubines. In fact, this is quite good. I also like their appearance of having fun in time. However, but I couldn’t stop my mind. When others talked with me, I was silent. Who knows, I was making my mind play the movie there all the time. How tired I am. My memory also had white hair. I had a meal in a restaurant a few days ago. As soon as I turned around to check out, the mobile phone on the table was gone. In fact, I forgot to put the mobile phone on the table. When I remembered it, the baby has already arrived in Liang Shangjun’s pocket. The day before yesterday, he was holding a pocket with pajamas, coats, overalls and bags on his back. He waited for two buses and stood on two platforms, when I got home, I realized that my hands were empty and I was depressed. I suspected that one day I would lose myself and forget the way home. I fell in a strange corner with pity and was miserable alone. If memory loss is an extreme, the extreme behavior is terrible. I often cook dishes and find that I actually enjoy it, just like writing a text, looking at the result of my own efforts, just like the child I created, I was full of joy, but I was always distracted by the bright kitchen knife, and the idea of occasional collapse would scare myself, I am really afraid that one day I will wave my blade to the already, without any hesitation. You said, I am also very afraid of fate. Our extreme is that I will give up everything for you one day and go far away, end the mess of so many years and get together successfully. Such an idea is the same as that I jumped from a tall building and the blade myself. It seems unrealistic, hidden in the deep, and even has no sign, but it is in the real thinking. As long as I have extreme impulse, I don’t know whether to end myself first or this love first. It is a tragedy to end myself, and this love is the same.

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