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My love life is not very romantic (autobiography)

There are only two kinds of romantic emotions in the world. One is to help each other and the other is to forget each other in the rivers and lakes. Inscription today, 15 years ago, I still clearly remember that autumn October, the heroic bearing autumn wind made the sky blue and clean. In the four seasons of the year, I like Yangchun May and autumn October best. It was this October that I met him, when I just graduated and was assigned to teach in a middle school. I have just experienced the death of a first love. I feel exhausted physically and mentally as if I don’t believe in love any more. It was lucky to meet a right person at the right time, but for me at that time, I didn’t know whether the time was right or not, and I didn’t know whether it was right to meet this person, my love and marriage are achieved in this gamble. He is not handsome, but he is very heavy. His work unit was depressed and his acquaintance was forced to be laid off soon, but I think it has nothing to do with love. He said that he had a bad temper, but in the eyes of others, he was the only one. But he was meticulous and caring for me. For this, I am willing to risk my whole life. As for whether he will change in the future, I can’t predict, because no one has the ability to be unpredictable. So, when he said we should get married, I agreed. Marry, not everyone says that finding someone who loves me is much happier than finding someone I love. Later, I slowly realized that in my life, I might always think it was an insurmountable catastrophe, and I would turn around casually, with a bright future. Secondly, a meeting in life is a revolution, a reborn, a new starting point of life, and a process of accompanying to the end. It is still the golden autumn October, and the sky is so blue that people are particularly intoxicated. At this time, the sunshine is clean, the sky is clear, the clouds are holy, and the autumn wind is clear. I have always thought that the autumn of October has connotation and layers. It is rich and thick, like a mature man, gentle and elegant, and very like a beautiful and elegant woman, I love this season and some day in October. I didn’t say I loved him, nor did he say I loved him. We got married this October. My family’s living conditions are not very abundant, so dowry is very simple. His family is not very rich, so the wedding is also a very ordinary wedding. There is no red carpet, but I still put on a white wedding dress. There is no luxury house or car, but the decoration of my newly married cabin is quite warm. There are not many extra deposits, but I still feel that my life is quite substantial. Away from a depression, my life has undergone qualitative changes. I am no longer sad, being my queen in the kingdom he gave me. It seems that there is no romance of honeymoon, so we started the family life of firewood, rice, oil and salt. Maybe there are not many things I really need, as long as one is good to me. At the beginning of the third year, we lived in a half-square-meter bungalow in the school, which was a collective Dormitory. The room was narrow, narrow and long, and very humid. The house we live in is both a bedroom and a living room. Our bed is in the innermost part of the room. Because the room is deep, it cannot shine in the sunshine all the year round. If it comes to rainy days, the concrete floor seems to be leaching water, and the quilt is wet. In this small room, we lived for eight years. However, there, I spent ten years in my life, which was shallow, simple, the most beautiful and full. During that time, I used Youth to write the Chinese chapter of life and blood to raise the spirits of life. During the summer vacation, I volunteered to make up a missed lesson for the students with poor learning in the class. He prepared meals for me at home. On weekends, I took the students to have a picnic, and he escorted me on a motorcycle. Occasionally, we went to the woods with the students for outing and played games with the students. In that small forest, we were that year the month happy. At that time, I didn’t earn much money with him, but in which restaurant did he and his friends eat special specialty dishes? He would definitely take me to taste them alone. Colleagues often come to my house for dinner. The low cabin of more than ten square meters is always filled with laughter. Our life is not rich, but he will satisfy every dream that I cannot share. We can’t say that we have enough food and clothing, but we live relaxing and comfortable. He never quarrels with me. People who love words are somewhat inexplicable sentimental, but he never has any doubts. Even when I am in a bad mood and unreasonable, he also uses mild language to resolve my worries. Many years later, I gradually understood that all his words were the same. In front of me, it was the May Wei with warm spring flowers, which was fragrant and pure. All his male chauvinism, in my place, has become a starry-eyed careful exhortation, silent watch. Love is a nocturne of romantic? Or the trifles of life? I think there is destined to be one in fate. Whether it is the wind in the dusk or the wind in the forest, he is good enough for you and will never leave you. Then this person, it is a person worth having in life. Four women all have their own dreams, and my dream is that if I could have a big house of my own, it would be great! During the eight years of marriage, I bought a house base of more than 200 square meters in the city and built three bungalows. Our house is a traditional Chinese courtyard-style building. Its pattern is a courtyard with houses built on four sides. It consists of a main room, an east-west wing room and reversely-set house. The courtyard is enclosed in the middle from four sides, hence the name quadrangle. When building the house, he didn’t go home for a month and waited there day and night. I was ashamed that I had never been there once. The house has been decorated, but I like my big house very much. Like Villas, you can see corn, wheat, cotton and other crops when you go out in summer. The air is fresh and clear, much cleaner than the city, the environment is elegant and comfortable, there is no noisy traffic, and it is much cleaner than the city. In this big house, I have left too many memories. When I lived in the big house for five years, suddenly one day, I said I wanted to live in the building, and he said he also wanted. So we couldn’t wait to take the poster of the consumer square to check it carefully. There was a 120-square-meter undecorated building, so we went to ask the owner to see the house. We actually took a fancy to it at a glance, on the spot, six thousand yuan was used as the deposit. In fact, that is the only deposit in the family, and it is also the most unrestrained and straightforward thing we have done over the years. Simple decoration, elegant color, light pink. My friends all say that although it is concise, it feels very comfortable. In fact, I know that simplicity is beauty. When I moved into my beautiful and comfortable new home, I was already in debt. However, despite the debt in life, he still bought me roses and heart-shaped chocolate on Valentine’s Day. He would still take me to the Peach Garden for outing, and still take me to the cherry garden to enjoy flowers, still willing to let me spend a lot of money to fly to Shangri-La in Yunnan, Xishuangbanna, Dali, Lijiang, Stone Forest, let me go to Butterfly Spring, Erhai, to the mysterious primeval forest, let me go to the Shangri-La Buddhist temple to turn the world’s largest prayer tube, make a heavy wish, feel the religious piety and worship encourage me to see the sea, let kelp give me inspiration. Still let me go to the small town in the south of the Yangtze River, and go to the West Lake of Hangzhou, which is known as a paradise on earth, to find the beautiful and elegant lakes and mountains. Let me go to the ten-crossing rafting and go to the wild Sanpo to feel the pleasant scenery. I really appreciate him, it was him who let me live freely in a life that was not very poor. It was him who gave me a free heart to fly to every country I yearn. He said that he would not be tired if he let go of the world and heart. 5 even so, we have gradually paid off our debts unconsciously, and our life has become better unconsciously. Suddenly one day, my big house was gone. Because of the demolition, I paid us hundreds of thousands and gave us another building. It seems that we were rich overnight, but my heart was empty, and I still miss my big house. I miss the light wind in the wild and the fresh air. I miss my son’s childhood there and the figure of living with my in-laws. I miss the painted light pink quadrangle, Gate building, aisle, courtyard and every decoration in the living room, which is still fresh in my memory, in particular, there is a wooden heat transfer patch tone picture hanging on the back wall of the middle of the living room, which makes me like it. He said that the heat transfer patch of the “drawing” should be given away, and it is neither fish nor fowl to hang in the building. I said that I like that heat transfer printing, not that I am not willing to send it, but that it is my favorite thing. It may not be very valuable, but the heat transfer patch master was burnt for several days, and from this point he felt very precious. Therefore, this heat transfer patch accompanied me to live in the building. Put it somewhere in the study, it really became a treasure. That brick and tile are gone, and I always feel that even if there are more buildings, I feel that I am not as good as my simple and clear quadrangle. He knows that I like nostalgia, like collecting all the things I used to have, and I am still in the mood. Of course, that house has always been kept in my heart. So he said: in my hometown, I will buy you a bigger house base and build a big house. Later, we will open a vegetable garden in the yard and plant cucumbers, tomatoes and beans together, pepper, but also heavy watermelon, strawberry, I said yes, when I retire, leave the hustle and bustle, leave the city, go there to build hedge and plant Chrysanthemum, write poems and paintings, and live the life I like. I still like dreaming, because with dreams, people will live a wonderful life. Six one day, he asked me: what else has your wish not come true? I said: there are still many unfulfilled wishes. He said: your wish to publish a book has come true, and the place to go has passed. It turns out that you still have a lot of wishes that have not been realized? I said, if all one’s wishes come true, what is the meaning of life? He nodded and said yes. I suddenly asked him: What is your wish? He unexpectedly answered without thinking: My wish is to make all your wishes realize his last sentence. I was moved for a long time. I don’t know if this is a rhetoric, but I think it is the most beautiful and beautiful language in the world. I also believe this is true. He has tried so hard these years. I think a man can do this for a woman for a lifetime, and my gambling is also worth it. He hardly accompanied me to those beautiful places I have been to, and sometimes I would blame him for his lack of emotional appeal. He said that you travel, see the world with your eyes, and I see you with my eyes. He said that I could read the plot of your flowers, trees and Sea easily. No matter at dusk or in the morning, you can smell flowers. Sometimes you can smell the sea with emotion. It seems that a kind of meeting in life can create a prosperous life, which is enough to engrave four words without regret in life on the stone tablet of life. How many years later, I can sincerely say: marry him, I have no regrets in my whole life! Seven looking back on these many years, he loved me very much. It seemed that he had not suffered any injustice. My mother-in-law also loved me very much. I really appreciated my pain like my own daughter. I am very satisfied that he gave me a quiet, beautiful and warm home. When the book was published last year, I signed my signature in the study because I mailed the collected papers to many literary friends. My son stared at the bookmarks one by one. My mother-in-law wore the tassel of the bookmarks one by one in the bedroom, he packed one by one in the living room, which was really a very warm scene. I love my family and my simple but not boring life. I never know what true love is. But I feel that love should be selfless contribution, not possession. Love does not necessarily have wealthy life or high social status, and it has nothing to do with money. To love someone is to fall in love with all of her, her pain and smile, barren and rich, to fall in love with her advantages and disadvantages, ugly or beautiful. If these years with him also belong to love, it can only be a clear lake of water, a deep feeling. There is no choppy, surging wind and clouds, no vigorous and vigorous, the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, but it is just plain and light, and the feeling of being exposed to each other. This pool of lake water carries the clarity of the years and the fragrance of memory calmly. It is new and fragrant for a long time. My love life is not very romantic, but very warm. Tonight, thinking about my love and chewing the happy hay, I can still have a good sleep.

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